Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ♥

I'm totally sick of my life. Sick of my attitude. Sick of the way i behave. Sick of my thinkings. Sick of what is happening to me. Sick of the way people treat me. Sick of no freedom. Sick of EVERYTHING. I find life meangless. It's like i'm living because i am born into this world. When i want to die i have the thinking that i should see what is going to happen tomorrow. Cause life is full of surprises. And mostly i hate the way people treat me. Can't they treat me better? Just no one know what am i thinking and what i really feel. I am trying to change. But i just could'nt. There's always something that stop me from changing. It's just one thing. I am mentally tired of everything that is happening to me.

I told tracy what joey wrote on her blog. Yea, I am the one that told tracy that. I just wanted tracy to know how much joey treasured the Sistership. But instead of that, she flare up. And i knew that things are going to get worse. It really did. Maths was damn difficult. Miss Latha gave us three questions and the three questions i all dunno how to do. During recess Alexandra , Xueying and Tracy teached me how to do the maths:) Thx! So many people never do D&T. Lol. Lazy to find pictures larhs. Art lesson Tracy gave out our new Ez-link card. OMFG. It was p6 picture and i suck in it. I WANT MY OLD EZ-LINK BACK LARH! After school Tracy wanted to talk to joey about what she wrote in her blog. Went to daryll's block and eat sweet. Xueying help tracy to tok to joey. Joey keep on crying sia. She took 30 minutes just to answer one question. Tracy was damn angry larhs. In the end all our time wasted by joey manx. Went back to school for NAPFA test at 2.40. Wesly wanted to meet me. Lol. My NAPFA score sucks larhs. I did damn badly. I failed my Standing board jump. The others i passed. I think. Tao wei so siao larhs. His Incline pull up-50, Sit up-62, Sit and reach- 50+, Shutter run 9 seconds and Standing boared jump Almost 3 meter there. Siao lorhs.

After NAPFA went to meet wesly with Xueying,Tracy, Liyang and alexandra. He sniffing glue. Lol. This is the first time that i know people sniff glue in the soft drink can. He is like damn bloody high larhs. Then later Mdm armit and Mr Woo arrived at the park for checks. Lol. They went to blocks and check also. Liyang wanted to buy drink so we followed him. Slacked outside the shop for a while then i asked wesley to come and meet us. He come awhile when he walk away tht time i recieved a sms from wei qi. Knn. I was boiling then i shouted "CB KNN. SIBEI GUAI LAN". I threw my phone on the table. Then Tracy and Xueying took my phone and see the sms. Xueying used Liyang phone and cor Weiqi to talk. Tracy cannot stand it then she asked weiqi where is she and joey. They still in school so we walked back to school. Agn Xueying settle. Joey was crying agn. Weiqi keep on saying this line "FORGIVE AND FORGET" she said it more than 20 times. Went home after that. I was thinking about sth and i suddenly realised that i disowned more than 10 gans. Now i left two gans. Maybe i disown all of them.

I really had no idea what i am going to do in life. Drop out of school? I really don't know. There's nothing leading me to which path i should go to. I'm like a balloon flying in the sky, not knowing where i'll fly to. I've fallen and there's no one to pick me up. I'm like a shooting star, not as pretty as it,bringing disaster to the place i land on and affect people there. I just need someone to really guide me, bring me to the place that i truely belong. To a place where there are no sadness, no worries and fright. That person is the one that holds the key to my heart. He shall open it when he realise the key in his hands. Right now, it's invisible to him and he dosen't know anything about it. I'll wait for that day to come. Hoping it will not be too late too late.

Monday, March 30, 2009 ♥

So damn lot of thing happen today. Morning on the bus then liyang called me. Lol. I chuatio. Very little people will call me one. Then he ask me i got sweets annot-.- He will only talk abt this type of thing lorhs. He want 4 sweets-.- Reach school. Look at th time. Ohmygosh. It was 8.20am. I thought i was late. When i walk up the stairs there was not a single soul. This only comfirm one thing. I am late. But i was wrong. I reached the class and saw people in it! Omg. Haha. So shocked larhs. I'm not late:) Went to school hall and then liyang and daryll asked me for sticks. I tell them that i nid to give my fren 4 sticks then they agreed each of them take 3 sticks. Was toking to daryll then Ms Latha was asking people to sit down. Knn. Sibei suay sia. She saw my transparent earstick on my lip. Eh. I put TRANSPARENT one leahs! She asked me "Qian yu, what is that on your mouth?" I jitao push the earstick in. Daryll help me answer Miss Latha "Earstick larhs. She very bad girl." Lol?! Then sing finish National athem, take pladge and finsh school song. Attire check time. Walao. I dunno got attire check lorh. Miss Latha first one shoot me.

Miss Latha: "Qian yu, remove all your earsticks and the one in your mouth. Remove it now if not i will send you down. This type of piercing is least expected from you."

Of course remove larhs. I then dun want to go down and see Mdm armit. During recess Daryll took my whole packet of sweets and went away. Lol. I thought i'll never have it back. After recess some guailan people did something guailan. Bahadur wanted to borrow the book that was supposed to contain my box of sweets. I lend him lorhs. No sweet inside so nvm. Then later i dunno what happen Xueying asked me if the book on ridley hand was mine. So obvious larhs. Only I have the russian storybook in school. Then i shouted at dominc "Where is my book" he took from ridley and returned it to me. Then ridley reaction was like "yours arhs?" Wating outside classroom for ros to come and open the door that time i told Liyang that the whole packet of sweets was with Daryll. I noe only he can take it back for me cause his sweets also insideXD. In the classroom i told Liyang that Ridley took my book thing. I told him that i lent it to bahadur then bahadur lent it to dominc and so how it was in ridley's hand. Whoa. He immediately flare up. So fierce sia. He kicked the table and shouted the book very nice to see mehs? He had to go for Higher chinese so cannot settle. Lolol. Before he left he warned dominc " you better watch out". So fierce seh.

During science cher return us the common test paper that we took recently. OMFG! I PASSED MY SCIENCE PAPER FOR THE FIRST TIME! I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT! LOL! The first science paper that i ever passed. Haha! English was boring. Cher wanted us to write a 200 word newspaper report. I could not believe that i wrote 329 words. Lol. Tracy helped me push the damn 1.6 mm stud in. Everyone in the toilet was looking at me cause i screamed. LOL. The feeling is like repiercing the lip lorhs. Painful sia. Liyang was asking people for lighter. Lol. He could not resist the temptation of the sweet. Haha. I told him to go to science lab to borrow bursen burner to light up the sweet XD. After school was supposed to go to ICT. Then sasha dun want to go i also dun want to go lorhs. Sasha pangseh me sia! Nvm-.- She forever pangseh me one. Took bus 25 and went to AMK with Xueying, Tracy and Liyang. Went to Xueying's fren house and watched horror movie. The show damn disgusting larhs. Named Hellworld. Got some scenes small kid cannot watch one. XD. Watch halfway tracy and liyang hungry so go and eat Macdonald. Eat finish then continue watching Hellworld. I realised that Tracy and Xueying did not talk to Joey and Wei qi. I asked tracy y. She told me that Joey give her attitude and 'gin' her . Lol. Sisters dun break up kays. Its just a small misunderstanding. I dun wanna c another sister's quarrel cause i am still living in the phobia about what happened last time. So you guys are sisters. Stand united as one. About 5 lidat went home.

There's 5I gathering this friday at MBS. Anyone?

Sunday, March 29, 2009 ♥

Actually today want to go and see my touchphone. But too lazy to go out so never go and c lorhs. Afternoon my aunt's friend came to my house to see the 古筝. Mom wanted to sell it cause my bro dosen't want to learn it anymore. Blame it on the MBS 古筝老师. He never teach those that are going to graduate. He only teach those that are going to compete in the SYF. Morning mom went to Ubi Ave 1 to buy some things. She passed by the old mbs building. She told me that mbs will no longer have a Buddha hall. The beat thing of MBS is the very shiny Buddha hall and now they dun want it-.- Such a waste. Mom also told me that the classrooms would be bigger. Thats good. More spaces to run. Lolol. The field will shared between two schools, Manjustri and MBS. How to share sia? Dunno them larhs.

Was talking to Didi , Wesly and simeon on msn. Then simeon dunno what happen left all the convo.
Then didi type PERFECT ENGILSH. Yup. PERFECT ENGLISH. He said it. Then tok to wesly abt sweets. He want to come to my school tmr and take sweet frm me. Lol. He say i dunno how to tarik then waste sweets. -.- He want me give him all my sweets. No way man! I tell him i give him 4 sticks. HAHA.

Tmr still have volleyball. Sian larhs. Cannot pon. If i contine not going to volleyball, i will suck at volleyball.

Saturday, March 28, 2009 ♥

Bored. -.- I wanna go out tomorrow larhs. Simeon cannot go out then make me also cannot go out. I wanna eat sweets. No one pei wo leahs. Tomorrow maybe have tution. Make up tution cause i go speech day. Stayed at home the whole day and rotted. I getting my Pink touchphone soon! XD My uncle said that he will get any phone i want for me:) So good larhs. I skipped volleyball today. Feel like sleeping a while more so i decided to pon. Natasha wanted to go back to MBS on monday so monday not going to volleyball also. If i carry on like this, My volleyball skill will suck. Then one day i lose to secondary one i will lose all my face manx.

I nid to force the 1.6 mm lip stud in when i get it. Oh shit. I dunno how am i going to do it. My lip hole is the size of my earstick and its so small. Walao. I will seriously get super high. I feel like getting another lip piercing maybe the middle. And maybe tongue :X I remembered tellling didi that i won't pierce tonge. Below is the convo.

KENzxczx- : Smiley lips soon tongue
KENzxczx- : Luzlxcs
Qian Yu Yuzuki : no no
Qian Yu Yuzuki : tongue too many veins i scared
KENzxczx- : Yah
KENzxczx- : then later
KENzxczx- : suddenly
KENzxczx- : ur tongue
KENzxczx- : got stud
KENzxczx- : -.-
Qian Yu Yuzuki : won't
Qian Yu Yuzuki : aku scared kena infection
KENzxczx- : u wont care one lah
KENzxczx- : later u will pierce one
KENzxczx- : :D

Shit. If i pierce then tht means he guess correctly. How? Mr ong tell me dun pierce. He say its ugly. He said this"u MIGHT think its cute now. but its not. trust me haha." So how? Should i pierce?

Friday, March 27, 2009 ♥

Digusting siol.

Today 10.10 am end school. But got speech day sian larhs. After school bring my chair to school hall for speech day. Tracy,Xue ying, Liyang, Sasha, Daryll and daryll two frens want to buy sweets. I want to buy also so follow them lorhs. Then me and sasha wait for daryll friend very long then sasha abit pek chek say she want to go home and change and buy sweet. She can buy siol. The auntie sell to her sia. Buy liaoz take bus go Xue ying house there and find Tracy,Xue ying and Liyang. They at th block eating sweets.Sasha eat halfway then Liyang dunno what happen go and take frm sasha and pass it to me. Lol. I take one mouth then liyang say i dunno how to tarik. -.- Of coz i dunno larhs. No one teach me how i noe. Went to Xue ying's house and cut the book sasha gave me. Haha. I got a very powerfull book. Lollol. Put my sweet box inside. One thing missing. The lighter!! I haven buy yet larhs. Then i found out that i lost my lipstud. Knn siol.-.-

Took bus to back to school. Sasha walked to kovan to take train to go to her friend house. Walao the school really make the speech day like a super important event lidat. 3 hours sit there listen to talks and watch performance. Toopid sia. They dun want to release us after everything. They say got refreshments. One packet of milo-.- Not cold somemore. Lousy school. Teachers tell us to immediately leave the school cause canteen got refreshments for the VIP and parents. Chinese orchestra very poor thing sia. They have to entertain people eating food. Left the school then went to find daryll and liyang. Went to kovan and eat. After eating actually daryll and liyang want to play basketball at kovan cc one. But something hillarious happened. Got alot of people practising "taiji" at the court. Haha. They daryll down there lanlan. Tracy and Xueying went home then daryll and liyang go to another basketball court to play basketball. I went home.

Thursday, March 26, 2009 ♥

Damn sian larhs. Tmr got speech day need to go. Sian larhs. Just now i just knew a fact that is super digusting. Joannelimzhongen is fion's gan lover. Walao eh! Wth larhs. I feel damn disgusted. In school boring larhs. Teacher tok i listen lorhs. Forgot to do geography homework. Oops. During music lesson cher bring us to library to watch movie. Then angela tracy and liyang down there saying joanne ytd wear blue colour bra. LOL. So funny larhs. Geography cher make us copy so many notes larhs. School end at 2.20pm. That was the latest time i ever had in my life. Screw tht principle.

I pierce lip only and people keep on saying i paikia. Simeon and didi keep on saying sia.
Note to everyone especially kenneth.
I AM NOT PAIKIA.
AKU IS 100% GUAI KIA!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ♥

Walao. Liyang and daryll finish my chill larhs!!! Is daryll first one lorhs. Daryll saw it in liyang's bag then he took and eat. Stupid. They finish they whole thing larhs. Knn. When i walk into the class then people was looking at me with strange eyes. They like nvr c people pierce lips b4. During geography lesson was the best thing man. I no nid to hide stud cause cher won't catch. I think my geog cher last tym also paikia. I think only. He got three piercings on ear. I think he got lot more piercings. Maybe he closed it? Dunno. Got maths homework. Sian larhs.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ♥

Pierced my lip and smiley!! XD I want to eat sweet larhs. Have 10 sticks with liyang. Went to Alexandra's house to pierce my lip. Actually just want to pierce lip. But suddenly change mind so pierce smiley also lorhs. Pierce liao Alexandra go buy sweet. Tht lady sell to her sia. She always go there and buy. I pay $5 sia. No money now liaos. NEXT CHILL!! WHAHAHAHA. I damn miss it sia. Cannot eat cause lip swollen. Abit larhs. Liyang cut hair then i take out my lipstud. The blood like FOC lidat. Keep on flowing non-stop. I lost alot of blood. Damn it. So scary. Liyang sae if i pierce tongue then tmr if i c ridley buay guay gian he help me settle. LOL?! He want me go home cannot eat izzit? People look at me with those eyes that they look at a paikia. Hello?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I AM NOT A PAIKIA kays. I so good girl(like real).

My mom did not noe that i pierced lips. In fact, she did not suspect anything. So cool. Haha. Hope tmr go to school no cher will see. If miss latha noe then i will die sia. And my mentor chilll!! Going to get it frm liyang tmr. I suddenly remembered about alexandra's book. Whao tht book power to the max sia. She cut the middle of the book into the shape of the sweet then put her box of sweets inside. Power sia. She so clever lorhs. Kay i shall end here XD.

Monday, March 23, 2009 ♥

Just came back from volleyball training. I've improved! Even Mr woo says that. Maybe it's because i'm training with secondary 1. They need to learn more things and buck up their skills. The worst thing is i cannot serve overhand. Damn it. The secondary 1 can serve over hand! OMG. Diu lian! Nvm. I promise myself to attend morning PT. To build up muscles so that i can serve over hand.

Went to see doctor for my backbone in the morning. Hahas. I remember that time i went to dental also went school late. So good lorhs. Everyday can be like this then life will be so much fun. Reached schoool around 1130. Looked for Mdm armit in her office. I told her i was late. Then her reaction was like "The security guard let you in like this arhs?" I told her the reason then she asked me go for lessons. It was chinese then i suddenly remembered that i got chinese spelling! -.- Failed it. All dunno how to write.

I am totally not happy with the seats Miss latha gave. Beside rubbish picker. Infront of dominc. Behind yong jie. All A&D one. Knn.Cb. They so noisy lorhs. But i think i will pay attention cause my seat is near to the board and teachers table. I really have no idea how am i going to survive with this new timetable. The stupid principle lorhs! Knn. What 45 minute lesson. So long and tiring. Two lessons will be 1HOUR AND 30 MINUTES!! Can you imagine studying the same subject for 1hr and 30 min? I will be bored to death. Andandand, THERE'S MATHS EVERYDAY! Yes EVERYDAY! I wanna die.

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